SNOW… it keeps falling

Everyone keeps complaining about the snow that is falling and how it needs to stop.  I on the other hand love the snow.  I’m not a fan of driving in it but to look out my window and see the white stuff pile higher and higher is so cool.  We currently have about 8″-10″ of snow.

I managed to get to work yesterday by taking the truck but I did leave early.  I left around 1pm and made it home around 1:45.  I only work 4 miles from home, however, I take a shuttle to my car so it adds some extra time.  Luckily, it didn’t take me too much longer to get home then a normal day.

Today, I woke up around 7 to see a text message from my boss saying I didn’t have to come into work today because the county was on a level 2 snow emergency!  How exciting, a day at home!  I unfortunately do not have any PTO left from our vacation (and the little snow we had last week and left work early) so I may have to work this weekend but I’m going to try to get as many hours back as I can over the next few days.  I really can’t have a short pay check again.

Ok, time to go play in the snow!

This is my backyard last night.  The snow on the table is pretty accurate as to what we have all over!


Oh Happy Day!

I love Fridays! I love Saturdays more but Fridays are good.  The office is quiet and the weekend is only hours away from starting!  I’m looking forward to this weekend. 

Friday: Concert with some friends after a delicious dinner at one of our favorite restaurants

Saturday: husband said he would take me to the movies!

Sunday: (Valentine’s day) We are going to a nice brunch!

We aren’t really into the whole Valentine’s day thing but we do end up either going out to dinner with friends, just the two of us or having a nice meal at home.  Since we have a weekend tradition of going out to brunch we have decided to go out to a Champagne brunch to celebrate.  The menu sounds amazing! 

What a great weekend ahead!

Oh My Arms!

I think my arms might fall off!

Yesterday, Delmar gave me one big shoulder workout.  After I’m done with Delmar I usually go do some cardio, but not yesterday.  No way! I just wanted to get to my car and cry.  I don’t think I have every pushed myself that hard.  Each time I work out I’m finding out I have muscles that I NEVER knew existed!  I know in the long run it will pay off but in the mean time I think it might be easier to just cut off my arms!

Do you watch Biggest Loser?  I love the show.  I have debated trying out but then I don’t know how I could get out of work, be away from home, and I’m sure I could come up with a whole multitude of excuses.  Since I doubt I will never try out, I have debated on getting Jillian Michael’s weight loss supplies.  I’ve read up on it a little and it seems like it would be okay.  I just can’t picture her, or the show, putting something out that would be harmful for the body, if followed correctly.  Right?! I might stop at the local GNC and look into it and ask question.  To have that extra boost would be nice in this weight loss endeavor that I’m on!

19 days until my next weigh in… fingers and toes crossed

Operation Weight Loss…

Today is the day. Operation weight loss has begun.

I joined a gym in October, after many failed attempts with other gyms.  This time, something felt different.  I was determined.  After loosing my mom in July, and then having my mother in law go through cancer, I knew I needed to make some changes.  I had a free week pass to LA Fitness for both my husband and myself so we decided to try it out one evening.  We walked away 3 hours later without having a free week but becoming members of not only the gym but also of the personal training!  The thoughts going through my head at that moment were “Oh shit! What have I gotten myself in to? How can I afford all this? And what did you say about cancelling again?”  My mind was racing but I knew I had to make these changes.

We bought a personal training package that allowed me two go twice a week and my husband go once a week.  We both were doing so well in the beginning.  I was matched up with Delmar, who is known around the gym to make BIG changes, so I knew I was in good hands.  The first couple sessions with him I was so sore I could barely move but I kept going back.  I also did a few water aerobics classes as my cardio workouts (mainly because I HATE, no I DESPISE, the treadmill!).

So October was coming to a close and November was getting close to being done but then weigh in day happened.  The 30th of every month is “D-day”!  I dread this day because I have to spread my legs, hold my arms out, and stand on a scale while Delmar writes down my measurements!  Surprisingly, my first month I lost about 12″ total, a few percentages off of body fat and supposedly (explain more about the scale in a minute) about 18 pounds on the scale! Things were going great.  And this was after Thanksgiving, the day we all eat WAY too much food!

December unfortunately put me back for a bit.  I had to have surgery. UGH!  I had lost a lot of my drive to work out leading up to this surgery so I could only hope for the best that my body would get better and life would be back to normal.  I survived surgery, Christmas, and New Year’s Eve.  Unfortunately, my wonderful trainer decided that we should do a weigh in (even though I hadn’t worked out in a MONTH!).  Luckily, I didn’t put all those inches back on (only 5 of them) and my weight said I had lost a few more pounds! Unsure on how that is possible but that is what the scale said so that is what we wrote down.

During the month of January I was going to my training sessions each week but wasn’t really putting in much effort.  I also went on a vacation to Jamaica (and we all know that I enjoyed SEVERAL drinks a day and some AMAZING food while I was there).  January 30th was quickly approaching and I thought I could just avoid the weigh in. WOW! I was completely wrong.  Delmar looked at the front of the training book and said “today’s the day! Let’s see what vacation did to you!” “Oh no, do we have to?!”  So there I was, legs spread, arms out, and stepping on the scale!  I lost 7 inches, about 10 more pounds (according to the scale) but gained two percent body fat!

I was not happy with my numbers because I knew the scale was wrong.  Inches I can’t argue with but the scale I can.  At home I have the Weight Watchers scale and I want to stick to those numbers only which have told me that I have lost a whole bunch of NOTHING!  Yes, it has gone down but then it goes back up, and then down, and then up… you know the drill.  But now it sits in the same place I started back in October.  My pants do fit a little differently so clearly the fat just shifted around on my body (still not on my butt!)  Operation Weight Loss (OWL) needs to get started and in full swing!

**side note – story of the dreaded scale at LA Fitness**

When I first joined I had to get my beginning weight.  I stepped on that scale fearing the worst.  “What? Is that number correct?! Can’t be!”  This scale was about 20 pounds different from the one at home! But since this was the scale we were going to use every time we wrote that number down.  The second time I went and the scale said I lost 18 pounds my scale at home said I lost 10. Then when it said I lost 7 pounds my scale at home didn’t budge. See, this scale lies!  Tries to make you feel better but when I have a scale at home that says something different I don’t feel better.  So, from here on out I’m only paying attention to inches and a small amount of attention will be on the percentage of body fat!

OWL has begun!  I will be at the gym 4 times a week.  Two times with the trainer followed by my of so favorite cardio and then the other two days during the week I will just do cardio and maybe some water aerobics! (I love to get wet because then I don’t realize I’m sweating!… have I ever told you I am afraid of sweating?? haha… maybe not afraid but I dread it so much!)

I have a family vacation planned in the middle of June and I hope to be 40 pounds skinnier by the time we go.  Fingers and toes crossed!


Have you ever had one of those days, weeks, or even months were you just don’t feel right?  Not sick physically but just mentally off?  Unfortunately this has been me this week.  It is not a good feeling and I really don’t know what to do to snap out of it.  It seems to last about a week and then I’m back to normal.  During this time however I am miserable.

I start to think the worst about everything.  I over analyze everything.  I read into things too much.  I don’t sleep well.  I walk around like a zombie.  I am short-tempered. And so much more.

I feel sorry for the husband that has to deal with this.  While he understands what I’m going through, it is something he still feels that I need to “snap” out of and get back to the normal Kendra that I am.  He has to deal with the brunt of negativity.  Poor guy.

Yesterday I think was the worst day for my mood.  It didn’t help that I had to wake up at 5:45 (which is way early for me) to go to the gym (my least favorite place to go after the dentist) followed by 8 hours of work but then I was going out with my girlfriends which was well needed, especially time with Erin.  And we went to El Pueblo… YUMMY! (best chips and salsa around!)

Speaking of Erin… will someone please buy her house?  I really want her to move closer so we can see her and her family more.  I know that  she is about 30 minutes away (which isn’t awful) but to have her only 10-15 would be wonderful.  The two of us could relive our “Shriver, 10 minutes” runs if we were closer.  We could have more game nights, more girl nights, more everything.  DAMNIT! BUY HER HOUSE! (and while you’re at it will you also buy George and Jesy’s house too)

So back to my bad mood lately.  As previously stated, when I get in this “funk” I start to read into things too much and think the worst and yesterday I just felt like I’ve been a horrible friend to everyone.  Whenever I get this feeling I want to call all my friends and ask if everything is okay between us but a couple things hold me back.  1) I am terrified of what they are going to say 2) I don’t like conflict and since I’m already thinking the worst is about to happen I don’t know what to do 3) the person I’m on the phone with will think I’m crazy about what I’m asking and tell me everything is fine and to get over it.  When option three happens I am sure I would hang up, still feeling like something isn’t right.  Not only do I get this feeling with my girlfriends but I also feel that way about my husband.  That no one is telling the truth and if they did tell me the truth it was going to hurt. UGH!

Also, during my “funk” I get really tired.  I already struggle to get the sleep that I feel I need so this “funk” only makes things worse.

Oh well.  Really I should just “snap” out of it and realize that I have a good life.  Go take my medicine and head to bed because tomorrow is going to be a great day, right??

I promise to my readers that my next entry will not be me complaining.  Life is on the up swing!

They say Tuesdays are the worst…

What a true statement.  Yes, Mondays are bad but Tuesdays are even worse!  On Monday you are spending a good part of your day catching up with friends about your weekend.  Then on Tuesday it hits.  The amount of work that you have to do but you are so incredibly tired that you struggle to get through the day. 

Time to rant about the day… leave now if you don’t want to hear it!

For me, today was one of the worst Tuesdays I’ve had in a long time.  I woke up this morning (at 5:45) thinking that today would be good.  I was starting out with a morning workout so I’d be full of energy, right?  WOW! I was completely wrong.  Having a workout at 6:30 in the morning is the last thing I should be doing.  I left feeling even more tired than when I went in and as the day went on my level of tiredness only got worse.  Then, the stomach started to rumble and the head started to hurt and the aches kicked in.  Now, not only am I tired but I’m also not feeling well at all! Right before lunch I had to run to the bathroom (not that you want to know that) but I was hurting and thought I was going to explode.  I took care of business and was feeling a little better, minus the head hurting. 

I also sit in an office with flourescent lights and the longer I sit here the worse my headache gets.  I told my husband that I just want to come home, curl up in a ball, and sit in a dark corner.  And while I’m there if you want to give me a massage that would be great too! I think I might of actually gotten him to agree (maybe a little… fingers and toes crossed)

I have 15 minutes left of my work day and I cannot wait! 

I never want to work out in the morning again

And I can only hope that this headache goes away (and pronto!)

My Nephews

I know everyone says they have the cutest kids or the cutest nieces and nephews but I honestly feel that my nieces and nephews are the best.  I don’t get to see them very often except my sister’s triplets.

These three little guys brighten up my life.  I am not able to have children of my own so I love any chance I get to hang out with them.

Ryan is the “oldest”:

This little guy brightens up a room. He is full of energy but can also be a little whiney (can’t we all).  He actually could be a professor of “whinese” (according to my sister).

Evan is the middle triplet:

He is the shy one of the group.  Once he gets comfortable around you he is pretty talkative.  He looks the most like his dad.

Trey is the “youngest”:

I see Trey growing up and being into sports.  He is the boy of the group.  I do love how Trey can make some of the greatest faces.  You can always tell when he isn’t happy.

This past weekend I was able to meet up with my sister or just a bit and I of course arrived first.  I was sitting on a bench when I saw Ryan walk around the corner.  I quietly said his name and when he looked over he screamed “AUNT KENDRA” and came running up into my lap.  The other two quickly followed.  It is moments like that when I get kind of sad that I can’t have any children of my own but I will always enjoy the love these little guys give me.

In June I’ll get to see the rest of my nieces and nephews so be ready for more posts then!

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